Thank you, I am feeling a little better, but the first night couldn't stop crying as well as everytime I thought of it same problem :x Lucky my husband felt so bad for me and didn't make me feel bad for crying over a fish, he said "well you take care of them and you love them"
I guess it's just a terrible way to lose them, esp when you know they were perfectly healthy etc.. at least when they are sick you can kind of prepare yourself...but of course any loss of our beloved pets isn't easy.

thanks guys.