oh, thats horrid. thats one of the most shocking ways for an owner to discover a dead fish (speaking from experince here). my peach female betta recently jumped to her death and shrivelled into a little fishy crisp.

such a shame. my only breeding female too. so we feel your pain, hun

things can only get better though

and im a stong believer that everything happens for a reason. something good WILL eventually come out of it. good luck